Fields of Elijah, by Joe Molenaar

Fields of Elijah

by Joe Molenaar

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1.	The LightHouse 02:25	lyrics
i i i now forty-six days passin up a storm couldn't make it right for the three by three by three it's a solution to a problem be the lighthouse that beckons to me after it's become the day after tomorrow i lick my lips covered in menses-mixed-semen my heart beats out my chest and it's all so clear i felt like a little boy at the feet of a demon
2.	Et cetera 02:15	lyrics
coming from an empty promise you've gone and left no footprint missed another anniversary no traces left from melted fingertips anne, there's nothing i wish for more than to be loved do you see yourself staring back at me? you always found a way to come 'round only when the roses had forgot to bloom would it be a sin to question the sting it gives when poured on a wound? anne, there's nothing i wish for more than to be wanted do you see yourself staring back at me? let me go, let me go, let me go
3.	Goodbye to Esther 03:25	lyrics
our two bodies tangled turn into one and you whisper "i want you to" my dried spittle upon your breast if you wait for the morning, i'll wait with you but somebody third sneaks into frame and the tidal wave of nerves washes my balls your eyes dilate, stark black with honesty "what if it's like paint peeling off the walls?" where has the single child gone in the sacredness of our sensation?: to a place only the spirit can belong dignify the death of our creation why must the allusion to apples go when the leaves turn brown as your eyes? she finds the sunrise in your shadow and the rain recedes but where will she hide?
4.	August and April 02:38	lyrics
your swollen fingers undo the tether my tongue spreads your blushing feather as somebody who is so close to me tell me what my eyes cannot see i've done all i know to do i am staying here with you charming reflections at the empyrean the spells cast from her carnelian hide the only true offering lover, ignite my suffering i've done all i know to do i am staying here with you
5.	Forgiveness 04:11	lyrics
ravenous after two weeks of love-making lost in unsaid words from the sea, we're naked but nobody knows the price that i've paid in point of fact, to be lonesome and afraid returned to the waves just to find your voice hidden beneath the boom and the thwack i've done something i can never take back even if that's so why do i still want you? i'll never be able to find a body to fill your space no sense to run my fingers 'cross your lingerie lace i never thought to turn the crux to firewood you said you wasted a year to make me feel good an empty bench seating four lonesome bird singing with the king riding high on the hills if forgiveness is a losing fight why do we search for it our entire lives?

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Everything returns with an arrow through the heart.

Dedicated to A E I O U
When the twisted tree at last shall be my body then I shall begin to live my natural span. - Meng Chiao

credits

released April 30, 2022

All songs and lyrics written and performed by Joe Molenaar

Recorded in the Hot Mess

Holding close to the moments we spent together from afar

Sample of Forgiveness by Paramore, Fueled by Ramen © 2017 used on track 5, "Forgiveness"